grace_nafrica

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2007-02-10T21:31:30Z

I am sitting here in my brother's apartment, writing this. I feel cold all over.

My nieces are running all over the place and screeching and my brother keeps stepping outside for cigarettes.

My mom is giving me a hard time. I want to tell her I don't smoke weed. Because I don't smoke weed. And I don't think she knows that, or believes it. I'm not allowed to go out anymore because she is afraid. I can't hang out with Kassi tonight because of that. I'm pretty sure Kassi would cry if anyone offered her drugs. But my mom doesn't believe that.

And mom, I know that you're reading this right now. 9wangwa49g4a;

Give me a frigging urine test. Seriously. I don't
smoke
weed.

I want to go home. I hate visiting my nieces sometimes. They cry and hit eachother and my brother yells, and I hate to see my brother yell.

Kassi's playing mario party right now, and I don't want to call her because she will start getting angry at me for calling her every half hour. Sorry, Kass.

I am so bored. I want to go home home home.

I need to finish making my DNA replica for Biology. I think I'll do that in the car on the way home.

And I don't want to go ice skating tomorrow 39nwfaw9gmn4aa;

005

2007-01-31T22:50:44Z

I had field hockey off-season conditioning this afternoon. I just got home, and I have to leave soon to go to play practice.

I forgot to do my Global essay last night and it was due today, so I have to scurry to do it tonight and still get 10 points off. I'm such a tool. I should have just done it yesterday.

Where are all of my friends? They are all out somewhere or doing homework. I need them here, to talk to me. I'm so lame tonight and my eyes hurt ajwg;lw';

004

2007-01-30T21:37:17Z

I took a short nap before I wrote this, so I'm a little drowzy and emotional.

I have to leave for play rehearsal in approximately 1 hour and 16 minutes. I hope that I am able to talk to someone before then. As of right now, I'm pretty lonely. I've been so tired all day. Not physically tired. Emotionally tired. I don't really know why.

I want to have a party, but I have no excuse/reason to have one. My birthday isn't until November.

I don't know. I just want to have a party.

And I really want a boyfriend. At least for Valentine's day. Valentine's day will be so lame when i'm sitting at home watching American Idol with my parents.

And just so you know, I still can't figure out what I want. I'm so

confused.

GullibleAllie26 (4:33:09 PM): i thought you liked him.....ahaha

003

2007-01-29T23:06:42Z

I just cleaned my room. I can actually see my floor now that its not hidden in clothes and field hockey equipment. I like my floor, its all wood and nice.

3ag49naw0k4wa I really want to know why he's so upset.

Anyway.

I'm watching Extreme Makeover and this lady just got over breast cancer and she's getting all this surgery to make her pretty. You'd think that after going through a life-altering experience like cancer, that you'd stop being so superficial. I fucking hate America.

I really want to feed Courtney a cupcake right now. Mhmm. Dayuuum.

002

2007-01-29T20:10:55Z

I just got home from school and here I am, already writing in this piece of shit.

Two of my cats are sleeping on my bed and they look so coooooozy and I think I'll join them when I'm done with this. I walked Kelsey out to the bus today and it was cold as balls outside. I still feel chilled to the bone. Where's my tea at?

My math teacher called my mom today to tell her I have problems controlling myself. Fuck that, I have a 98 average in that class. Like I give a flying fuck whether or not I know how to behave. I obviously know how to; that's the only class where it's been a problem. Laaaame, whatever.

That's really all I can write about.

001

2007-01-29T01:20:43Z

I've been a very bored Grace lately, so I decided to make a livejournal.

I'm on the phone with Kassi right now and I'm talking to Andrew on the intaaahnet. I woke up at Kassi's house this morning. Next to Kelsey Shay HM YEAH. And I had field hockey and our team won all three games, and I scored a goal when I was in as forward :)

That's why I wish I was happppppy tonight.
3awfwa09mjgaw Anyway, its because
I don't think I know what I want anymore. I've been thinking about it, and I'm thinking about a million different people at once and its starting to eat my entire brain.

Well, not a million different people. Three. Three boys. I keep trying to hide it but I guess I'm not going to anymore. I just want to give up on it altogether and start fresh. Sometimes I wish I didn't have feelings so I didn't have to express them.

People think I'm so like, daring and shameless or whatever. But when it comes to stuff like this, I'm like a four year old. I have no idea what to do.

And I'm DEFINATELY not wanting to go to school tomorrow. For once. I feel like this weekend was nothing. It only lasted a few hours. My parents told me its supposed to snow, and I'm hoping they are right because I need to go to Goodwill with Kelsey to get funny outfits for her party on Friday.

My sister came home from California last night. She's home for good, she and her fiancee moved back to Connecticut. I found out when I was at Kassi's party last night and I freaked out and shook Kassi's shoulders really hard.

She's downstairs with my grandparents and my entire family. I couldn't bear watching everyone eat, so I came upstairs to talk to Kassi and Andrew.

And I forgot my French textbook at school, so I have to go in early tomorrow so I can do my homework.

And I really wish that my parents would turn up the fucking heat in the house because its cold as balls in here. Fuck.